Haix... another at work and a nite of unpeaceful rest last nite... papa and stepmum quarrel sias... dunno for wad and they vent their anger on me...i noe they feel angry and wanted to vent their anger on other pp... but...but.. did they knew how i felt getting scolded for nth sias... haix... so shack ar...den i watching tv kena scolded...lol... only noe how to scold pp... nv think how we childrens feel when being scold sias.... it's like... haix...tot that after all the quarrels in the past have ended... but no,nt at all... history is repeating itself once again in front of my eyes... right b4 my own eyes...i dowan to have this kind of life! i hate it! i wanna this family to be a peaceful one.. i dowan papa to quarrel wib my stepmum... i one them to live happily as a couple...when will they stop this nonsnese? is it becos of us that they quarrel? till n0w they all still giving each other the cold shoulder... haix.. and both haben even come home yet... i wanna change this world...change it into a loving world if i could.. no hard feelings of anger and frustration.. no longer hatred nor devils lie in our hearts... i wanna my family to be wad it used to be.. a happy one.. i dowan my jie they all to change character... er jie is becoming more and more bad le.. she nv used to scold me but... haix... i wish to die soon.. if i ever die... papa..i'm really sry for being real bad last time.. i shouldn't have turn bad..i should nt have went the wrong way... i let euu down den... sry... i really regret it n0w... i'm really SRY!!!
TODAY
went to work todae.. so sian ar.. den cant play maple cos papa sae i addicted to the game le..haish.. todae dun play l0r...hehex..but still feelng a little down... when i see other pp parents so teng them i felt..... haish.. dowanna live anymore.. my depression is comin again...no longer happy.. felling tired now and den.. being vent at as a punching bag by families...everyone has change.. they wanted me to be gd and i did it le.. yet they thenselves change to a horrible monster themselves...haish! needa pay my hp bills fast if nt die ar... if i could get a job that pays alot of salary in one dae i happy le l0rx..can help my papa share the burden... any recommends? for high pay salary job...hahax.. jk... but i am gonna work hard.. earn more $ so papa they all no need gib me $ to spend.. they can keep it for themselves to use...haish... todae after work went to bugis walk walk a while wib edwiana and mao mao lor.. wakaka... eat kfc... hahax.. den went to bugis street see clothes.. edwiana wanna buy clothes den go see see.. but in the end nv buy cos clothes nt nice at all..wakaka...den later went home l0rx... mrt stand so long.. den reach home le... papa they all haben reach home... jie go stay at tamp hse norx.. she ar.. bet stay at bf hse ar.. tmap hse.. as if i believe... haish... all have change... so do i.. change to more mad le... haish...den papa came home den went out again.. both paretns nt home yet l0rx.. WADS WRONG WIB THEM? SOMEONE JUZT KILL ME! ARGH! dne chat wib my kors kors on msn... tell 2 kor kor bout my family matter l0rx.. wei sheng so lame ask me go his hse stay he pei me... =.=" siao sias.. hahax...haish.. he is a gd kor but pervert..wakaka... haish... so sianx ar.. still waiting for papa to come home... so lonely..
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