Nothing goes smoothly.
Day 8 - Life
Talk about life and what would you think of?
The past. The suicidal. The rebels.
Last night, my nightmares replayed over and over.
Tears welled down.
I thought about the future.
I thought about other kids my age.
Finance was always in my way of growth.
But I know this problem will also help me to grow up future.
I know I should not cry, but it just felt so miserable.
But oh well..
I will pull through in this 3 years.
I will not disappoint myself.
Although my results are like freak shitty now.
Hell yea' with a D for almost all subjects.
No more suicidal thoughts.
No more tears.
I will be strong. Cause I still have my sisters by my side.
I believe I will pull through with their moral support.
& the warmth from my ah ma and e-po.
They want me to continue studying and stop worrying about $$$.
If daddy can't pay my fees, they will.
Second sis too saved up via insurance and said in case I need to pay school fees for next year.
She has ready cash from her insurance.
I felt so blessed. Without them, I think I will crash.
Crash dead. Really.
I'm just hiding behind those sorrows behind that smile you all see.
I'm not strong as I seem.
Denise
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