u all always think i'm wrong.
i disappoint u all.
i put my bf in first place.
of cos i put him, in first and u all 2nd.
he understands me more den u all do.
i know u all will say cos i'm in love with him.
so i'll think that he understands me alot.
but u all are wrong!
he understands me like he knew me long ago le.
he talks to me over matters that i do wrong.
even thou i will cry, yes i do. cos i'll feel guilty.
guilty for not listening to his words.
my bf speaks to me i usually also go in and out of another ear.
although he's angry with me.
he doesn't rant like a mad dog at me.
nor scream or sms with a exclamation mark.
this shows he truely cares bout me and wants me to change.
but dada wad bout u?
wan me to type all the sms u send to me? ranting at me.
pushing all the blame to me and stuff.
while u. of cos u are not in the wrong.
cos all the while u always think i'm at fault.
take the incident bout ur tai ma.
woah! u told how many pp i dowan to help u work?
hur! i told u i'm charcoal! sunburn.
extremely pain. and den u say i'm selfish.
den u are also selfish la. not only me.
i cant move ard as i told u. i was lying at one spot not moving much for that day.
and u called me selfish. WOAH! thks alot girl.
i'm selfish and u are caring den. and pls.. dun copy my hur hur~
>@=(
den me? i told my friends about ur bad words?
hello miss uhs! they dun like u i also nv say ur bad words or wad.
and u claim i did to make them dislike u?
i ask u, for fuck i do that? i wun be so scheming ok.
and i defintely wished my friends to like u.
but it's cos always i argue with u i'll go crying.
my friends naturally think that u are hurting me thus dislike u.
and i didn't tell them anything at all! see it?!
nth at all missy. u can go and ask them.
if i'm selfish den u are also freaking selfish.
u made ur parents worry so much about u when u were bad.
screaming at them and etc.
i told u to cherish ur parents, pp who love u.
told u ur dad got injured while thinking bout how bad u were that time.
ur reply was so? den u wan me to do wad?!
this is called caring is it?? woah.. so interesting.
i shall care for u in this manner next time. or mayb no more next time.
once i get my money back, i wun contact u le.
ok? i'll go ur hse and take my stuff and go.
i wun leave my stuff at ur hse in case u see it. u flare up agn.
and i thought u say wun be my friend le?
ytd still call me for wad? is U who said,
DUN wish to be MY friend le. why still call me?!
ruin my mood totally. and told u i had to celebrate bdae.
u still dun let me hang.
me using perfect english to agitate u?
using my bf to hao lian to u?
for fuck! if u wann me to ask bout ur life.
the first thing i always meet u u tell me le. so no point asking le wad.
u wann me to tell u bout work? i can tell u uhs.
i was standing at the bar being a bartender, facing all the liqiours.
there's jack daniels, schneeps choco and raspberry, vodka lots of vodka.
and then there's also hsewine and hse spririts. it's all hard liq. =D
and den i tell u den cocktails name. B52 consist of all hard liq. woo~
den also got slippery nipples, singapore sling and etc etc.
u think if i tell u this. u know wad are they ma?
no u dun. so tell u for fuck bout my work? i also dun talk at work.
i nv talk at all to my seniors at work de. seldom talk. cos i dunno them well.
nth to say de. my clothes u see before le. and u say u find it wierd.
den u still wann me to tell u bout my working clothes? -.-!!
and den u wan me to tell u at home how bored i am is it?
most of my time spend was with sotong wad. of cos say bout my bf. duh~
and den u say i hao lian to u. is u ownself dun cherish bf wan me do wad?
i wann to see u married happily also, but guess i wun get to see it le ba.
u got so many friends ma. 'outside' friends.
ya ok.. den go la. go to them la. they wun PS U MA!
i WILL wad. so U dun need ME as a friend le uhs.
trexis will listen to u. heart to heart talk ma. no need me de.
all YOUR friends hate me ma. seriously i DUN CARE lo.
THEY wann HATE let them HATE. also NOT my friend. tiu!
so it doesn't affect me AT ALL.
as for roy, read ur tagboard. yes i dun like to sms.
i hate sms-ing. i hate going out ever since o's end.
and i haven been going out much after o's end.
and i rather stay alone in my hse and rot.
can? happy? now my life consist mostly of work!
how to spend lesser money. settle my rent, settle my school fees.
settle my school books. so i sms lesser! but thks to u all arguing with me thru sms.
i gotta spend money and top it up agn. thks very much roy.
and sry.. u have been ap-ing me since cs isn't close to u le.
i stayed by u after school to try and cheer u too.
and u also didn't notice.
if u all dun like me at all. say it through my face. not sms or calls.
it's so not sincere.
ya throw me ur notes. u think i'm gd at chem?
i know which chapter? i hate chem, i still force myself to study.
i hate bio but i still force myself to do finish the whole book of 10 yrs series.
find my mistake, memorise stuff. cos u didn't want me to disppoint ms lin.
at least i didn't get F for my science le.
i got D! it's a big improvement for me.
but to u all, i'm still a disppointment. i did my best. not that i didn't.
i wish to be gd at chinese. but i ain't gd at all.
and i freaking swear as long as i pass my chinese i'm happy.
my lit marks drop do u know. i nv studied lit at all.
i was trying hard on freaking science!
all i concentrated on was science. and u all said i didn't.
u all didn't even see me ton at dada hse.
to study. at least she taught me the basics of chem to let me understand a lil.
i'm really grateful to HER for that, i'm serious.
but u just throw me ur freaking notes when i dun even know the basics.
and u still said that chem basics is so easy, how can no one knows?
ya i'm the one. i hated science. thus i didn't know anything bout science.
happy? i cause u to flunk ur science?
thought u had been studying all this while on science?
how can u flunk it? ya all blame it on me ba.
i am jinx to u. i hai u fail. HAPPY BO? blame it all on me ba. thks.
yes my bf is my priority. cos he understands me de most!
u all dun even understand me well. i also dun undertsand u and dada well.
so let's just do wad dada say. dun be friends le. she doesn't need me.
u too doesn't need me la. right? cos u have given up.
baobei, i'm so sry. disappointed u by using see when i wann to sms u den sms.
i'm so sry. but i now dun even have much spare time to use my hp.
i always work till 11pm or even 2am. and i cant use my hp when working.
i'm busy busy earning money to survive too. that's why if u ever sms me when i'm working.
it'll be midnight den reply. i even see alot of miss calls when i end work.
which i didn't bother to call back. cos i'm using prepaid. i wanna save.
i this baobei have failed u. like wad dada say i'm selfish.
mayb i really am. for now i just wish to be cope up in my hse.
dun wish to go out. cos i hate going out. even if i do go out. i'll be lu chi le.
and freaking road stupid. even if take mrt. i also blur at times.
but dun worry, i'll make sure to have some time to go find u at tamp de.
i'll try to ok? i change no i'll tell u de. but dun give others ok?
i dun wish to give my no to pp who thinks i'm selfish.
doesn't care bout them and think of my bad points nia.
so keep my hp no a secret. =))
from now onwards, i'll choose my friends wisely.
i wun make friends who take me as a spare tyre.
totally cant find pp den come find me de.
i somemore hao xin say wann ton her hse to talk to her.
but all she does is talk on the phone.
play audi.. how to talk?? say wan ton my hse also fake.
at least i still got diana as my bestie. and yes she cfm ton my hse de. hahahahas..
oh well.. i miss diana le. diana~!~!~! LOL!
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