Sometimes i don't even know why I'm feeling down.
Sometimes i don't even know what I'm thinking.
Most of the times i tend to interpret people's typing to higher level which you peeps won't get what I'm getting at.
All i can say is. No one truly knows me.
I'm hiding my real self. Some where within my soul I'm hiding.
But i don't know what I'm hiding about.
Cause even me, I don't know what I am. I don't know who I am.
Like the saying goes ; ' Because fixing your problems would require actual effort '
I'm doing it effortlessly. I guess.
Am trying hard now. Gotta fix all my problems.
Gonna squash em' hard and just get over it.
Like hell yeah~


I tend to sit alone.
Facing those four walls and ceiling.
Thoughts rummaging through my life.
Things that i thought that were complicated but it was in fact easy.
Things that i could solve easily but lack the courage.
Where's my light? =(
And fuck the dream today !
Had a bad dream, realize i cried when i woke up.
And the dream was about les back-stabbing me again !
Hope the dream don't come true. As mine always do. =(

Squeal ~ Smoke ~ Drink ~ Get high !
That's what a past depress me would do.
But.. Hey ~ No more girl.
I've gotten the wake up call a yr ago.
Yet i still see no improvement in me.
I'm still that girl who hey I can solve your prob.
But when it comes to my own, i'm always stuck.
Not trying hard to move forward.
I just leave it there, maybe it might go away by itself.
But HELL NO! I think i need a psychiatrist.
I'm putting way too much pressure on myself. =(((
I wish my life was better. Yeah stop daydreaming Denise Neo.


Well.. To end the post with a happy one!


OOOOO~ Baby cooking ramen for me to eat eat.
SLURP ~ Baby cook give me again can?! HEHES!!!
I love your cooking ! I love the soup.
Oh I love you ~ I love just walking ard with Baby.
Catch the breeze at the mall.
Just window shopping makes me content.
Sitting bus to and fro.
The 1hr journey ride I get to hug your arm and lie on it.
A pillar that's there for me always.
But i hate it when Baby gets cranky. And i hate myself when i get cranky too. =x

Pictures for today :


Thks Baby for being by my side.
Even when i start screaming at the top of my lungs at you.
You 'REN' !!!! Even though it's not your fault.
You always give in to me.
I'm afraid will you be able to tolerate my weird crazy temper for long life.
Will you? I'm afraid of so many things.
My mind is running wild again. =(
I need you by my side now. I rly do. =(

You're all I ever wanted ;